38 days left and no long runs :(

so i clearly have lost something i had a while back.  while before i had my mojo back i’m now back at square one and i blame mother nature.  i did complete my half marathon on jan 25 or something like that..did i mention it snowed the ENTIRE time! ugh! the following weekend i was supposed to rack up my first 16 mile run and as nervous as could be i told myself i was going to do it..that was until 3 feet of snow was dumped on us! so i decided i’d get my mojo back and be ready for 18 this weekend…well that clearly won’t be happening either, since the 3 feet didn’t even have a day to melt before another foot and a half was dumped on top of that! 

so i am hoping that i can get back on my game, and come monday there will at least be road that i can run 18 miles on! if not i may have to back out of the marathon purely because i’m not physically ready.  but dont’ worry, i will still be on my marathon kick and will train for one later! if the marathon fails i’ll do the half in va and sign up for the fredrick marathon, and focus my training on my triathlon, i may even do the run-a-muck!! that could be fun! either way i WILL be doing a marathon by summer!!! and i prefer it be shamrock!!!

68 days…

68 days left and i am really starting to question my abilities.  yesterday i went on a long “run” just under 14 miles and i thoguht i was going to die.  i am trying to figure if would have been a littel easier had i planned better, i mean i was dehydrated the whole time, it was FREEZING cold, the canal was a sheet of ice that was all sorts of jacked up, i rolled my ankle at least 4 or 5 times…so where the ice was really jagged i had to walk which was like a good portion of the run.  so this run took me muuuuuuuch longer than i had hoped.  and while out there i had a good deal of time to think about what i was doing.  is running really for me? am i pushing myself towards unachievable goals??  i mean obviously i know i can finish a half marathon, thank god since i have one coming up on the 30th, but i have decided that if i don’t finish it 2:30 to 3 hours i’m back out of the marathon, and will train harder and do the half marathon at shamrock, i’ll add another half in april, do my tri in june and then get into a training group for the marine corp which is in october. 

maybe i am capable of doing this, and my dicking around with training is catching up with me. i guess i have a few weeks to tell me.  well off for a short run!

74 days…

wow- 74 days left!?!?

well its a new year and i have a whole new out look on my quests for the year.  running is coming along, slowly but surely.  i had a long run this past weekend, it SUCKED!!!! it was cold like 18 degrees with massive winds, all while running along the potomac river on a solid sheet of ice!!! whew if that doesn’t scream dedication i don’t know what does!?!?! and believe it or not i rocked a HOT PINK under armour jacket… not that the brand means anythign but i wore something not black, grey, or white….it was very loud!

from here on out its all double digit weekends, ugh. i think i mentioned that in my prior blog, but oh well. but as a practice run, i did sign up today for the Snapple High Cloud half marathon!!! apparently i’m a re-re.. its at the end of this month. but i get a super cute medal! wahoooo…

well for the rest of this week its tues- thur 4 miles each day with a beautiful 13 on sat!! and i certainly don’t really believe those 13 will be beautiful!!! with friday as rest day!!! and boy am i taking it!!!

83 days and counting…

I have no more excuses!!! I’ve just been SLACKING!!! i need a smack on the hand!!  The holildays are now over, which means the traveling is done, which means that its is time to get my ass in gear!! I’ve decided I’m not going to over dedicate myself, becuase when I do that I am gung-ho for a few weeks and then I get burnt out!! So while I am 100% committed I’m not going to revolve my life around my training! 

Tomorrow is supposed to be a 4 mile run, REGARDLESS of the weather I’m going to run on the canal!!! I think mostly just because I got a new Garmin and I wiant to put it to use!! Speaking of I just reminded myself I need to charge the iPod, god knowsI can’t run without music…well unless I have Shayla to chat with!

Oh and can you believe this…I have actaully been reading my book I got!!! I love it and it ahs helped me alot!!! In fact it suggested this blog and a few other things which I will be blogging about probably tomorrow, but its late and I am sleepy so I’m going to wrap up!!!

13 weeks to go….

over the last year i have been trying to transform myself; mentally and physically.  one of the ways i’ve been doing this is by running.  until this year i have never in my life been able to consistently run a full mile, not even at the height of my athletic days.  while i have grown to really love my new sport, i find myself becoming discouraged, and lacking all motivation.  thats where this blog comes in.  it will be a boring one so if you happen to read it once it a while don’t say i didn’t warn you.  this is just something for me to do to hopefully find my motivation and inspiration again.  i started run/walking back in Jan of 09 and did my first 5k in april.  since then i have done a few 5k’s, a 10k in the raining ice, and the army 10 miler back in october.  i can honestly say running across the finish line at the army 10 was one of the happiest moments i’ve had, almost to the point that i wanted to cry a little.  but doing these things i’ve really decided to challenge myself, and i registered (paid the 100+ dollars) for the shamrock marathon in virginia beach on march 21.  after registering i was gung-ho about my training but in the past few weeks i’ve been losing whatever it was that i had before.  could it be that maybe i should have just shot for the half marathon, or maybe i really don’t think i’ll be able to do it, or maybe i’m starting to just get to worried about the triathlon i’ve also decided to do in June.   either way today marks the 13 week till race day point.  i know that gives ample time to train but i’m just down on myself right now.  i think i will find my way back, better yet i know i will… i just need to write what i’m doing, how i’m feeling- physically and mentally - and where i’m at as far as training.  so for me this is more than a blog, its my journey to something i would have never thought possible.  i’m not trying to break any records at the marathon, i’m just trying to finish, even if it takes me ten hours i WILL cross that finish line, and be ridiculously proud of myself.  i even have a bit of motivation a friend of mine has registered, one that i ran her first race with, and this will also be my frist race where i will have someone cheering me on at the finish line.  maybe even a few someone’s including some of spin class friends and my boss who is the one who got me into this whole world of running and and what not.

where i am as of today…. feels close to nowhere.   its not but i’ve been lacking, in training, i’m in massachusett’s and there is a  blizzard outside so unfortunately i can’t run outside and i HATE running on the treadmill, but now that i think about it i may not have to go to the gym i think there is a mini-gym at this complex. i’ll have to brave the cold to get there but i’m ok with that!  even though today is supposed to be a rest day i think i will make up for yesterday and i’ll do 6 miles- on the awful treadmill.  i also need to put a little more effort into fixing my diet, i don’t eat right at all but i’m working on it, and the real serious work will hopefully start today!!! at least that is my goal

i bought a book last night called “the nonrunners marathon guide for women” i’ve never been a reader and odds are i’ll read the first few chapters and never touch it again but i think i might actually try and take what this book has to offer.

until next time…